It’s sunny, temperature is int he 80′s. and I am sitting on my porch! We had a cold, rainy Memorial Day weekend here in southern Wisconsin, and it is so good to see the sun. It is also so good to actually have time to sit on my porch, relax, and write. It has been a long time.
I finished my school year well, and am not ashamed to admit I feel proud of myself! This year of school has been so intense, but I have learned so much. The experience has changed me, in good ways, and I have enjoyed the challenges and the growth that has come from them. It feels wonderful to be pursuing this, to have a goal and a purpose that is for me, for me only, and not in a selfish sense. The goal and purpose have an application to a wider world, and is a way of helping people and maybe ultimately making the world a little bit better, even if it is only in a small way. Sounds a bit grandiose there, but so be it. It’s been a long time since I did something for me. For many years my choices were all based on what was best for the husband and kids, and then for the kids, and now– it is my turn.
So I’m done with one year and have one year to go, which is both awesome and incredibly scary. It is hard to believe that by this time next year I will have graduated and will be preparing to take the licensing exam for PTA’s. It doesn’t seem possible that I will be ready. But I’ve watched the second-year students this year and seen them all go out ready to do this and have to believe I will get there too. Also, much as I was ready for a break, I miss school and my classmates!
Son Jacob graduated from college (magna cum laude!) last week, which was just a thrill. I am so proud of him. My parents came up from Tucson to go to the ceremony, and I am happy to say that his dad and his dad’s wife sat with us. I know it meant a lot to Jacob that his dad and I sat together and watched him graduate. Even just 2 or 3 years ago this would not have been the case, and it is a happy sign of how far we all have come. As for the future, Jacob has a lot of decisions to make and options to explore. This has been a difficult semester for him, for reasons I won’t go into (it is not my story to tell), but he is getting through it and I am so proud he has persevered.
Daughter Madeline is home for the summer after a very good freshman year at college. She has a summer job that pays pretty well and gives her 40 hours a week, and she hates it already. It’s a factory line job, not at all her cup of tea, but it will be a good experience for her and she needs the money. It’s second shift, and since I work days we won’t see a lot of each other, which is sad but such is life.
I’ll be working full-time too, refilling the coffers for the next school year. I hope to have a little more time for friends, too. Between work and school I had no social life for the past nine months and I’m anxious to catch up!
Meanwhile, the lawn needs mowing, flower boxes need watering, and my pot of herbs is ready to be put out.