February is usually not a month that needs to be longer, but this year February has been fairly mild and today is unseasonably warm. It was 45 degrees when I woke up this morning– it’s strange to see snow melting and the gutters dripping on a February morning. It’s mostly sunny and windy right now, but we have snow showers forecast for later.
I had an unexpected day off yesterday so had lunch with my friend Sue– it had been ages since we had time to sit & chat and it was good to catch up with her. She’s had a lot going on in her life– more than I had realized. She’d kinda pulled away recently, and I was wondering. When friends pull away the insecure part of me thinks it’s because I’ve done something or because they are annoyed with me. As I have gotten older and started to become a little more confident in myself, as well as a bit less self-centered, I realize that it is often a sign that there is something going on in their lives. I try to respect that they need time, and I don’t want to pressure them, but I think I need to do a better job of reaching out and letting them know I’m available if they need me.
I managed to also get a few things done around the house yesterday. I should have gone to the grocery store, we need a few things. I was thinking of running over this morning and then remembered it was Wednesday, AKA “old people day” at the store. I love old people, I really do, and I know I will be old someday, sooner than I care to think, in fact, but going to the store on old people day is just aggravating. It’s crowded, it’s slow. Also, I must look clueless or something because people always seem compelled to give me advice on what to buy. I’m innocently looking at the difference between Brand x and Brand y of a given product and someone will come up and tell me which one I should get. They mean well but I find it annoying– I can shop by myself, people, been doing it for years. If I need advice I’ll ask.
Well, anyway. With no classes this semester and the theatre guild job over, I have some time, and it’s a good feeling. I’ve just set a goal for myself– I will blog every single day in March. Scary! But there it is, in writing. Wish me luck!
